I started the day with a six mile run and afterwards, took myself off to a cafe to spend two hours on the novel. More drivel poured from my fingertips, but even so, 2000 words of rubbish is better than nothing at all.
My faith in the universe is waning. That’s the trouble with all this stuff. It’s hard to keep the feelings alive within you. I start off all badassy and raring to go and then a few days later, I’m back to being a negative Nancy.
I keep reminding myself that I created this life and if I am not 100% happy with it, I am the person who has to change it.
I had a BFO today – blinding flash of the obvious. This has been said to me many times, but I finally twigged that you can’t do anything just for money’s sake. You have to love what you are doing.
Perhaps I should have called this blog – One Year To Find The Most Meaningful Work of My Life. Although, it doesn’t quite have the same ring to it.
I thought the thing I really wanted to do most was write a novel, but today, I wasn’t feeling it. Still, there is rubbish on the page that can be turned into something special if I try hard enough.
I am on my way to finding the most meaningful work of my life. Cash will surely follow.