Claws out – Day 201

Everywhere I turn there are messages about how bad moods attract bad things into your life, so when I awoke in a right old grump, I decided to do something about it. It’s what Esther Hicks calls ‘raising your frequency’ – although tbh, I’m not sure we can all go round grinning like a Cheshire cat 24/7, but I’m trying to stay in the zone here.

I started with the Headspace app. 10 minutes with Andy Puddicombe usually helps, only I’d locked myself in the bedroom and as soon as I pressed play, my husband was hammering on the door.

‘What the hell are you doing in there?’ he barked.


‘Let me in. There’s no space for meditation in this house,’ he said.

Tell me about it.

I gave up and headed to my office. By now, I was feeling even grouchier and decided to try a 10 minute money manifestation video on You Tube. It was one of Esther’s and her voice is almost as soothing as Andy’s.

As she was instructing me to know that abundance is all around, my husband burst in, saw a load of dollar bills on the screen and barked: ‘Why are you watching this money-grabbing rubbish?’

It wasn’t going well…

It’s interesting though isn’t it, that I am married to somebody who regards my efforts to improve our finances as ‘money grabbing.’ I was only doing a 10 minute meditation, it’s hardly up there with robbing old ladies in the street.

I told my husband to leave the room or else I’d shame him on the blog and continued with the meditation. I felt much brighter afterwards and half an hour later, somebody called and suggested they could direct work my way for a small cut.

Then, I did the Ask And It Is Given  cheque game. I wrote myself a cheque for £2,000 and imagined what I would spend it on. The first thing that sprang to mind was a divorce lawyer.


Personal manifesto

Money and I are dancing cheek to cheek.



  1. Be careful there, you’ll start to sound like me.
    Just kidding. No one bitches about their husband as much as I do.
    Oh wait. Yes they do. Most married women I talk to.
    I’m trying to change MY game but hoo boy, men are a frustrating lot!
    It’s a relief to tell a friend and be understood; it feels good to be HEARD. Isn’t it therapeutic?
    But according to Esther Hicks, that is not a smart focus.
    You don’t like it? Don’t write about it, don’t think about it, don’t talk about it.
    Easier said than done. Old habits die hard. Etc. Etc.
    I do find that changing my habitual reactions and thoughts makes some difference, and I hope that as I get better at it, so will my marriage.


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