I think I might have pinged. Several Journey people have asked ‘Have you pinged yet?’ since I started the process and so far, I’ve snarled back ‘No, I am just sad and anxious.’ Today though, I am not sad or anxious. I woke up at 5.45am raring to go. I felt clear-headed and full of energy.
If 10 is ecstatic and 0 is the depths of depression, then at the moment, I am a 7, which is just great, because I’ve been hovering between 3 and 5 with occasional dips to 2 since I started the Journey process a month ago.
I have an overwhelming urge to declutter my house, grab life by the balls and go out there and earn that million quid. Although I am STILL not quite sure how that is going to happen. In fact, I have lowered my expectations somewhat. I’ll go for earning £200K a year for starters. It sounds a bit more manageable – it’s a long way off, but hey, it’s only October (eeek!).
I’ve got so much done today and it’s been immensely satisfying. I’ve even managed a ballet class and sorted out some accounts queries I’d been putting off for weeks. I had a strange feeling of weightlessness during my conscious resting session, although the experience was ruined when an enormous lorry started wheezing and screeching outside my window.
The first thing I want to do is sort out my office. It is a tip. I long for a studio in the garden and I am going to keep visualising this. However, this also means that I have to imagine that the garden has been sorted too. I’ll need a proper pathway leading from my house to said studio and I won’t want to be looking out of the window at creeping vine and assorted weeds.
I’ve noticed from reading past blog posts that I have what you might call yo-yoing emotions. One day I am up, the next I come crashing down. Now, if I can stay around the 7 mark for a while, I’ll be happy.
Soon I will know how I am to make this vast fortune that I dream of.